A Self-Published Author’s Diary

Pic of Book for blog

When I first started blogging, I attended a conference on how to be successful as a self-published author. “Wow!” I thought. Imagine being discovered and having my book become a best seller. Even better, imagine writing a novel that turns into a movie… Divergent? Hunger Games? The Diamond Guardians? They all sound good to me…. However, I think the conference was a best seller for the author hosting the event because everyone’s experience is completely different.

The most important thing I have discovered is that you have to want to be in the writing industry because you undeniably love to write. If you choose to write because you think your book is more special than any other person’s book, then you need to be prepared to face disappointment (unless you get lucky).

You have to write because it’s a passion. Never set your limits low. Always aim towards your best seller because it will happen one day. When it happens, it will not be because all of your friends and family have bought your book, but because there was a spark in the book that lit your readers’ passionate hearts on fire.

I love reading books that captivate me from the moment I read the first line. In fact, the first line of my book, The Diamond Guardians, is “I was no longer a girl who lived in the mountains of Topanga”. My character, Katrina, has already had changes to her in the first sentence that will ironically be something that she has to combat throughout the young adult novel.   The first line is the beginning. It is the moment that you have the undivided attention of the reader.   It determines whether the reader will yearn to read more of your story or if they will move to the next book.

It is also very important to make your characters come to life. I know it’s hard to do that when you write fantasy fiction or science fiction like myself, but it is possible. The world you create may not be real, but the characters are the core part of your world. They are the ones that make the unreal world become a possibility in the minds of the readers. I think it is very important to build the people in your world as much as it is in creating the world itself.

As long as you love to write, keep writing. You are able to share a priceless gift to others through your stories and ideas that will captivate some and infuriate others… a writer’s life.

Live – A Poem

Live in the moment


By Talin Mari

Pick up and move forward, the night is still young.

Pick up and move forward, our lives have now begun.

With every whisper, with every calculated speech,

We remember the past, leaving it behind to teach.

We live in the moment, running beyond the horizon,

Memories are left behind, collecting dust in its own bin.

Move forward. I believe.

Run forward. I succeed.

Live. I thrive….

Countdown to Self-Publishing


With my release date for “The Diamond Guardians” just around the corner, I feel a mix of anxiety and excitement.  It reminds me of the first time I started blogging.

My first blog changed so many times.  I wrote several blogs, but none of them seemed to be the right one.  Finally, I wrote the blog that I thought would be worthy of posting, but, then, the anticipation set in.  My heart beat quickly while I constantly checked my smartphone for new followers, Twitter retweets and favorites, and Facebook likes.  A Facebook share would have been a bonus as my eyes did not seem to leave my social media venues.

Similarly, Thursday is the release of my first young adult fantasy fiction book and I am torn inside from excitement and anxiety.  All I can think of is whether I am on the right path.  Is my print book ready for Amazon? Yes, check!  Is my Kindle version uploaded? Yes, check!  Do I have it in Smashwords?  Almost there, check.  Do I need to put it in Nook?  Wait… I thought Smashwords took care of that…. It’s time to double check on the Nook.  What about marketing?  What will happen on Thursday?   Thursday will definitely be a busy day for me.

Someone gave me a bit of great advice.  “Be patient.  Everything will happen in time.”  I suppose patience is all that I am forced to have now.  Patience mixed with a lot of nerves.


Dream: A Poem



By Talin Mari

Sitting in my chair, wondering where you are,

Pondering in my chair, when will you be back?

My eyes feel heavy, I sink deep into the cushion,

My hands fall listlessly to my thighs, helpless.

I fight to stay awake, the night has not yet come,

I try to lift my eyelids, but the night has now won.


Why did you leave?


Where did you go?


Was it all a dream?

Dreaming the dreams,

Feeling the dreams,

Hearing the dreams,

Opening my eyes,

Realizing it’s you,

Leaving no more.

Why I went Indie

Why I Went Indie Pic

I think the hardest decision I have made is to determine whether I should self publish or go the traditional route.   This decision was so difficult for me that I edited my manuscript five times just so that I could postpone any final judgment in the matter.  Editing a manuscript five times, after my book was completed over a year ago, really shows how treacherous the pros and cons of the options have been in this process.  I did not make much of an effort to try to go the traditional route, sending out only a few query letters while I researched which path would be best for my convictions.

After a year of pondering over this subject, it finally hit me.  Why am I really writing?  I have a wonderful young adult fantasy fiction book, The Diamond Guardians, waiting to be read.  Waiting!  Yes, waiting!  No one had read it at that point in time because I had not made my decision.

I finally realized that the reason why I write is because it is my form of expression, the one I want to share with the world.  It is the painting that hangs in my own art gallery waiting to be critiqued.  It is the diamond that shines on my necklace waiting to be seen by other people.  It is my creation, a world in an author’s mind ready to be explored.

Self publishing allows me to have the freedom to write anything that I want to write.  My story will remain unchanged.  I know that the traditional publication path would have offered me a plethora of marketing options; however, it would have been too difficult for me to part with all the pieces in my book.  As it is, my perfectionist personality took care of the cuts in my book.  I could not bear to see more cuts being made.  The story would fall apart.

Needless to say, I wonder what Hemmingway would do if he were alive today?  Would his writings be the same if was a self published author?

I cannot say that I will never decide to take the traditional publication path, since everything in this world is constantly changing.  If everything stayed the same, the world would be a dull place without any stories for writers to write about or bloggers to discuss.

With that said, I hope you enjoy reading my artwork and cherish it like your own precious gem.

The Diamond Guardians by Talin Mari will be released on July 9, 2015. 

Armenian Hope – A Poem



“Armenian Hope”

by Talin Mari

Time changes, history stands still,

We move forward, we remember.

Our souls unite as one entity,

A purpose, a vision, a reality.

Staying strong, never forgetting,

Leaving the weakness behind.

Time changes, history stands still,

We move forward, we remember.

Our history…

A plea for humanity…

Our ancestors…

Enduring the atrocity…

Our seeds…

Creating the future…

Our hope…

The New Beginning: Poetry


The New Beginning

By Talin Mari

Farewell to the tears shed over the bitter sorrow,

The grief, buried.

Farewell to the memories too hard to remember,

The anguish, forgotten.

Give rise to the new horizon of eternal gratitude,

The heart, gifted.

Give rise to the devote embrace of knowledge,

The mind, illuminated.

Welcome to the sweet innocence of the moment,

The tenderness, unexplained.

Welcome to the uncertainties of the dreams,

The stories, exceptional.

Farewell to the buried and forgotten.

Give rise to the gifted and illuminated.

Welcome to the unexplained and exceptional.